Song Lyrics

Sometimes I hear a song, and it just speaks to me...it's not usually the whole song, maybe just a line or two, but man, do those two lines hit close to home! And it's funny because usually the subject of the song has absolutely nothing to do with why I relate to it. There are three songs (currently) that really hit me emotionally, in regards to my hysterectomy & what I went through. One is 'Sand in My Shoes' by Dido:

Two weeks away, feels like the whole world should have changed,
but I'm home now, and things still look the same.

Now, of course, in the song, she's singing about a vacation, and my two week hospital stay was nothing of the sort, but those two lines describe exactly how I felt when I got home.

The second is just a one-liner from 'Shattered' by O.A.R.:

How many times can I break 'til I shatter?

I went through so much both physically & emotionally, and there were times I thought I might just break under the strain.

The third is from 'Break Even' by The Script:

They say bad things happen for a reason, but no wise words gonna stop the bleeding...
cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no...

This part is a double-entendre for me...physically bleeding, and emotionally bleeding...and, of course, it did break my heart that I can no longer have children. And later, in the chorus:

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathin',
Just pray to a god that I don't believe in.

The first line is pretty self explainatory...true, again, physically & emotionally. The second line is so ironic...I don't consider myself religious, and I don't really believe in a god, but I certainly pray when the going gets tough. To whom or what do I pray? No one & nothing...and everything. The world at large. Karma. Fate. Destiny. My guardian angel. I don't label it, I just put the prayer out there, and let the world make of it what it will.

I am constantly revising my list of theme songs to my life, but those three will always remind me of what I overcame & how much stronger it has made me.